I am so grateful for this program!
Lately I found my self going to the same meetings every day... not once changing it up. My sponsor thinks I should be out there looking for new comers to help out and possibly sponsor, so he suggested I start going to some new comer meetings! (Most of the meetings I was going to do not have high volumes of new comers coming in)
At first I was in fear and stuborn, but then I realized that I wasn't stepping out of my comfort zone by going to the same ol' meetings every week. At that point, I suddenly became the one who wanted to seek out these new meetings! My sponsor pointed out a character defect, which I my self could not see... but with the help of others I now see it and very much want to take some action!
So yea, that's AA working in my life today!
Jonathan
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Sunday, December 9, 2007
The weekend
What an eventful weekend!
I am slowly getting use to this socializing thing... We had this drunk, totally plastered guy come up to starbucks and make a huge scene on Saturday evening. At first we were all amused, but he was being hostile and rude to people, and a fight almost broke out as he touched a few nervese.
I must admit that at one point I thought I was going to hit him myself... but my friend Mark seemed calm and collected... so I quickly toned it down a notch. Better to just let it go and get the store owner involved rather than do something rash.
On another note, I did quite a bit this weekend with different folks in the program, and boy, what a blessing that is!
Today I am grateful!
I am slowly getting use to this socializing thing... We had this drunk, totally plastered guy come up to starbucks and make a huge scene on Saturday evening. At first we were all amused, but he was being hostile and rude to people, and a fight almost broke out as he touched a few nervese.
I must admit that at one point I thought I was going to hit him myself... but my friend Mark seemed calm and collected... so I quickly toned it down a notch. Better to just let it go and get the store owner involved rather than do something rash.
On another note, I did quite a bit this weekend with different folks in the program, and boy, what a blessing that is!
Today I am grateful!
Saturday, December 1, 2007
"You are looking at the face of the only one responsible for your happiness today."
Just wanted to say thank you to DG for the cool qoute:
"You are looking at the face of the only one responsible for your happiness today."
Very nice, made me smile. And as for the cold, I feel better today... I called my sponsor and shit all over him like a good pigeon and then flew away, leaving him with all my crap! Lol, that is funny... the pigeon thing, is that why my sponsor calls me his pigeon? Ah, I just figured that out! Ha!
Funny... learned something new!
Today I am grateful for:
Our Saturday Night Meeting!
Starbucks
Chris for hanging out
Matt for the same
and Heidi
and Carry
and John
and Maura
AA
And of course my sobriety
And my HP! He is the bomb dig-it-ty!
Jonathan
"You are looking at the face of the only one responsible for your happiness today."
Very nice, made me smile. And as for the cold, I feel better today... I called my sponsor and shit all over him like a good pigeon and then flew away, leaving him with all my crap! Lol, that is funny... the pigeon thing, is that why my sponsor calls me his pigeon? Ah, I just figured that out! Ha!
Funny... learned something new!
Today I am grateful for:
Our Saturday Night Meeting!
Starbucks
Chris for hanging out
Matt for the same
and Heidi
and Carry
and John
and Maura
AA
And of course my sobriety
And my HP! He is the bomb dig-it-ty!
Jonathan
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Second Cousin!
Interesting 12 step work yesterday...
My Aunt called me from Baltimore Maryland, and shared with me that my Second Cousin called his mom, (my Aunt's Cousin), and said that he couldn't stop doing the drugs and needed help!
He is 20 years old and in College right now.
So yea, this is the first time that someone else in my family, has come out with their disease and admitted they needed help! I was so happy, yet sad too, cause I didn't know he had a problem. But doesn't that sound familiar to some of us?!
So I called him up and encouraged him to go to some meetings, and shared with him what works for me. I also said that I'd love to hit a few meetings with him when I get up there in a few weeks for Christmas!
On another note, I am sick... not flu sick, more like cold sick. And that sucks, but I think I am almost through it. It has me down though, kinda depressed, cause I just feel sick, and that is no fun! So I am trying to stay positive, but it is hard, cause I just feel like sleeping all day.
That's what people told me I should do to get better, but it makes me feel lazy and worthless!! Just sharing how I feel... any how, I think I should probably call my sponsor and complain to him, I am sure he will put me in my place! ;)
Today I am grateful!
J
My Aunt called me from Baltimore Maryland, and shared with me that my Second Cousin called his mom, (my Aunt's Cousin), and said that he couldn't stop doing the drugs and needed help!
He is 20 years old and in College right now.
So yea, this is the first time that someone else in my family, has come out with their disease and admitted they needed help! I was so happy, yet sad too, cause I didn't know he had a problem. But doesn't that sound familiar to some of us?!
So I called him up and encouraged him to go to some meetings, and shared with him what works for me. I also said that I'd love to hit a few meetings with him when I get up there in a few weeks for Christmas!
On another note, I am sick... not flu sick, more like cold sick. And that sucks, but I think I am almost through it. It has me down though, kinda depressed, cause I just feel sick, and that is no fun! So I am trying to stay positive, but it is hard, cause I just feel like sleeping all day.
That's what people told me I should do to get better, but it makes me feel lazy and worthless!! Just sharing how I feel... any how, I think I should probably call my sponsor and complain to him, I am sure he will put me in my place! ;)
Today I am grateful!
J
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Enjoy these new experiences!
Thanks for that, Daave... That statement makes so much sense to me today.
I have been running around with family, doing what they generally want to do. It has not been my way or my plan most of the time. I am merely a servent in this case, taking my Dad around, or my cousin today.
I am happy to do so, at one point in my life, this would have been a major stress on me and my drinking ways! I would have been anxious the whole time, and drunk for sure in the evenings after the family stuff.
Today I am grateful!
Jonathan
I have been running around with family, doing what they generally want to do. It has not been my way or my plan most of the time. I am merely a servent in this case, taking my Dad around, or my cousin today.
I am happy to do so, at one point in my life, this would have been a major stress on me and my drinking ways! I would have been anxious the whole time, and drunk for sure in the evenings after the family stuff.
Today I am grateful!
Jonathan
Monday, November 12, 2007
Dad in town this week!
My Dad recently came into town this week and visited. He was here because my brother had a baby and he wanted to see her! We basically hung out all weekend.
For me this was a very rewarding experiance, as I got to enjoy everyone's company without drinking or drugging! It use to be that I was always anxious and annoyed that I had to socialize with the family... but today I can be thankful that I have a family and make the best of every time we can get together.
Any how, good times and I am happy to be home. My cousin is coming in on Wednesday, so I am going to have to rest up for him as well... since it looks like he will want to see the baby as well! So back up to my brothers on Wednesday!
Today I am grateful for:
My family
My home
My friends
My Country
Our veterans
For me this was a very rewarding experiance, as I got to enjoy everyone's company without drinking or drugging! It use to be that I was always anxious and annoyed that I had to socialize with the family... but today I can be thankful that I have a family and make the best of every time we can get together.
Any how, good times and I am happy to be home. My cousin is coming in on Wednesday, so I am going to have to rest up for him as well... since it looks like he will want to see the baby as well! So back up to my brothers on Wednesday!
Today I am grateful for:
My family
My home
My friends
My Country
Our veterans
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Page 40 - A New Pair of Glasses
Found another qoute I think is relavent to my sobriety. (I hope I am not breaking any copyright laws by posting this stuff!!)
From Page 40 in "A New Pair of Glasses" by Chuck C.
"But how do I know whether it's my will or His will? And that's a good question, and I have the simplest answer in the world for that, for me: If it's important to me personally, it's my will. If it is important to me personally, it is an ego satisfaction. If I am praying alright it is not something for me. It's that I might be of some value to you."
You know, it seems often in my sobriety I find myself asking this question... how do I know if what I am doing is God's will or my own? Generally, if I even have to ask this question, I probably already know the answer, usually it's my will because I think when I ask this I am doing something or going in a direction and want to know if it is ok... if this is my purpose. But I ask God for selfish reasons... therefor asking him for direction is actually the selfish act!
Mostly, it has to do with work or school... asking "Hey God, is this what you want me to do, or should I try something else out, go a different direction?" That statement in itself is selfish, and self seeking. As I am asking God wether this is job is ok for ME or if this class is right for ME. I I I I what is best for ME? If the question isn't "hey, what can I do for others that you would have me do?" then I am just living in my own self will.
So yea, hope that makes ome sorta sense. The point is that I am trying more and more to get out of my own will, and do the next right thing. This means not asking for what is best for me, but what is best for others and what I can do to pack more good into the stream of life.
J
From Page 40 in "A New Pair of Glasses" by Chuck C.
"But how do I know whether it's my will or His will? And that's a good question, and I have the simplest answer in the world for that, for me: If it's important to me personally, it's my will. If it is important to me personally, it is an ego satisfaction. If I am praying alright it is not something for me. It's that I might be of some value to you."
You know, it seems often in my sobriety I find myself asking this question... how do I know if what I am doing is God's will or my own? Generally, if I even have to ask this question, I probably already know the answer, usually it's my will because I think when I ask this I am doing something or going in a direction and want to know if it is ok... if this is my purpose. But I ask God for selfish reasons... therefor asking him for direction is actually the selfish act!
Mostly, it has to do with work or school... asking "Hey God, is this what you want me to do, or should I try something else out, go a different direction?" That statement in itself is selfish, and self seeking. As I am asking God wether this is job is ok for ME or if this class is right for ME. I I I I what is best for ME? If the question isn't "hey, what can I do for others that you would have me do?" then I am just living in my own self will.
So yea, hope that makes ome sorta sense. The point is that I am trying more and more to get out of my own will, and do the next right thing. This means not asking for what is best for me, but what is best for others and what I can do to pack more good into the stream of life.
J
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