Nothing new to report! But, I did do school shit for a record 12 hours today! On top of that, I fit in a meeting at 7:00 at Bayshore, which I consider to be my most favorite meeting in all of South Tampa!
I saw Jeff and Tom there, among some other folks.
Such a busy day, and not even done yet. I should probably finish my lab report tonight, but I am tired and will probably just do it first thing in the morning...
I am so glad to have seen W. today too, he is just so spiritual... you know, when he talks it's like... damn, I want what you have man! So I listen intently and try to apply the things I hear into my daily life. Tonight, I will probably end the night with a quiet mind, which is always a good thing!
Jonathan
Today I am grateful... for my cat who is totally bugging me while being cute at the same time!
And of course being sober
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Testing email thingy again!
I am at the school atm and typing this.
Mike finally left today, thank the Gods I can get back to work on school and stuff. Tonight I am going to the Wednesday night meeting on Bayshore. I am excited. I have not been there in a few weeks due to the stars aligning and stuff.
Nothing new to really report, I got a 98 percent on my physics exam! Highest in the class once again. Yes I am an over-achiever, and my 86 in O-Chem disturbs me to all hell, so I am studying super hard for that next class.
I look forward to a relaxing meeting tonight, where I can just decompress for one hour and just sit there agains the wall. It's my meditation time... do you know what I mean? After that, I will probably go out to dinner with some friends, I know my buddy Felipe probably wants to hang out, he was out of town recently and just got back. The other friend who has disappeared do to his new sponsor... I mean girl friend, will probably not be there. That's about all she wrote.
Jonathan
Today I am grateful for:
Good friends
Mike for buying me all my food the last two days!
My family
My cats
My house
All that crap I own
Living in America
And last but sooooo not least, being sober today, one more day at a time
Monday, September 22, 2008
Testing the email feature
Just want to test this email thing... appearently you can post to your blog by sending an email. Cool!
Nothing really new atm, I am at school and need to work on my physics lab which is due on thursday... not to mention the bio lab quiz, the organic lab quiz, the organic lab report, the organic lecture quiz on Wednesday, the organic lecture quize on Friday, the Organic chapter outline due on Friday and last but not least I would like to make it to a meeting tonight!
Awesome, I love meetings! I get to practice with boundaries tonight, my friend Mike is flying in and needs a place to stay. I told him I was not available to be a taxi, since this night and the next two I am slammed with work. I bet he will assume that I will drive his ass up to Brookesville... which will not happen. I can't wait to say no!
Hmmm, not much else to report. Just like doing my thing, Still tired of all the drama in AA, but trying my best to stay out of it. I think I will have to adjust who I hang out with after and before meetings... perhaps it's back to hanging out with Sandy B. and all the older guys?
Jonathan
Today I am grateful for all this lovely school work!
Nothing really new atm, I am at school and need to work on my physics lab which is due on thursday... not to mention the bio lab quiz, the organic lab quiz, the organic lab report, the organic lecture quiz on Wednesday, the organic lecture quize on Friday, the Organic chapter outline due on Friday and last but not least I would like to make it to a meeting tonight!
Awesome, I love meetings! I get to practice with boundaries tonight, my friend Mike is flying in and needs a place to stay. I told him I was not available to be a taxi, since this night and the next two I am slammed with work. I bet he will assume that I will drive his ass up to Brookesville... which will not happen. I can't wait to say no!
Hmmm, not much else to report. Just like doing my thing, Still tired of all the drama in AA, but trying my best to stay out of it. I think I will have to adjust who I hang out with after and before meetings... perhaps it's back to hanging out with Sandy B. and all the older guys?
Jonathan
Today I am grateful for all this lovely school work!
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Saturday, September 20, 2008
September 20th, 2008
It has been a while since I last posted, so let's fill you in on what is new with me. School has recently started back up, I am taking Organic Chemistry, Biology, and Physics. All three classes have a lab on Thursday, so I am pretty much slammed with homework all week every week!
This last week was particularly stressful, as I had three different exams on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, labs all day Thursday, and shadowing a doctor on Tuesday! Fun stuff, but I am struggling with relaxing today. I don't have any tests for a few weeks, but I know I need to study almost everyday even if just for a tiny bit. Today, I woke up and went to Panerra to study at like 11:00am, which was a mistake, because all the folks on the weekend bring their kids up there or something... tons of people, crying babies and so-forth... I should have known.
Promptly getting agitated and not getting anything done, my state of mind quickly regressed to a primitive ape-like state... wanting to throw feces at the table next to me and pounding my fists on my chest seemed to be a good idea... I realized this, and quickly left to come home. If I can't study, perhaps it is better to relax for a few hours before my Saturday night meeting.
So, in the last month I picked up two years sober! Hurray! Sobriety is good, nothing really new there. In light of all the studying and stuff, I still make it to as many meetings as I use to on a weekly basis.
One thing I am annoyed about recently in AA is this: What the heck is up with people in AA, who become a part of a group of friends, and then fracture off into their own worlds? Like, say for instance, a group of people all become close and enjoy hanging out together. Some decide to alienate themselves from the group, and do their own thing, causing others in the group to take it personal, at which point they start their own little resentment. Then someone decides to get a girl-friend, who is in the program, and that person just drops off the face of the planet.
The next thing you know, that whole group of people, who all had fun hanging out like 6 months ago, is fractured and splintered apart into new groups, or even some are out there isolating, or in their own little world with their new found girl friend.
Why can't people just get along? I understand that now I need to just accept it and continue doing the next right thing, hang out with new people after meetings, start new friendships... or better yet: find people who aren't so damn flaky! You know, when people decide to isolate and not be friendly with other people in the program that I may be friends with, I can't act like they do and isolate myself from people I like, value as a friend, and respect... just because they have some weird psycho b.s. excuse for not being nice!
Does this make sense? When I drank, I had no friends really... except the drinking variety. Then I got sober and started making friends. It's amazing how when you get sober, you realize that people are really just people. Social groups form, friendships form, shit happens, and just cause we are all apart of AA, doesn't mean everybody has to like everybody else. I didn't realize that this would happen. I think I kinda thought people all just got along regardless. Throw sexual relationships into the mix of the social group and everything just gets messed up.
It's hard for me too, because I tend to get along with EVERYBODY. I mean seriously, I am not tooting my horn... I do not rock the boat, and I can't think of one person that I "avoid" or have ill feelings toward in the program. Certainly no-one will keep me from a meeting or dinner outing...
Anywhoooo, just blabbing, thats what was annoying me recently and had to get it out there!
Jonathan
Today, I am grateful for:
My cats
My mom
My family
My friends...
My cats
Schoool...
Being sober... and alive
Peace of mind...
You
This last week was particularly stressful, as I had three different exams on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, labs all day Thursday, and shadowing a doctor on Tuesday! Fun stuff, but I am struggling with relaxing today. I don't have any tests for a few weeks, but I know I need to study almost everyday even if just for a tiny bit. Today, I woke up and went to Panerra to study at like 11:00am, which was a mistake, because all the folks on the weekend bring their kids up there or something... tons of people, crying babies and so-forth... I should have known.
Promptly getting agitated and not getting anything done, my state of mind quickly regressed to a primitive ape-like state... wanting to throw feces at the table next to me and pounding my fists on my chest seemed to be a good idea... I realized this, and quickly left to come home. If I can't study, perhaps it is better to relax for a few hours before my Saturday night meeting.
So, in the last month I picked up two years sober! Hurray! Sobriety is good, nothing really new there. In light of all the studying and stuff, I still make it to as many meetings as I use to on a weekly basis.
One thing I am annoyed about recently in AA is this: What the heck is up with people in AA, who become a part of a group of friends, and then fracture off into their own worlds? Like, say for instance, a group of people all become close and enjoy hanging out together. Some decide to alienate themselves from the group, and do their own thing, causing others in the group to take it personal, at which point they start their own little resentment. Then someone decides to get a girl-friend, who is in the program, and that person just drops off the face of the planet.
The next thing you know, that whole group of people, who all had fun hanging out like 6 months ago, is fractured and splintered apart into new groups, or even some are out there isolating, or in their own little world with their new found girl friend.
Why can't people just get along? I understand that now I need to just accept it and continue doing the next right thing, hang out with new people after meetings, start new friendships... or better yet: find people who aren't so damn flaky! You know, when people decide to isolate and not be friendly with other people in the program that I may be friends with, I can't act like they do and isolate myself from people I like, value as a friend, and respect... just because they have some weird psycho b.s. excuse for not being nice!
Does this make sense? When I drank, I had no friends really... except the drinking variety. Then I got sober and started making friends. It's amazing how when you get sober, you realize that people are really just people. Social groups form, friendships form, shit happens, and just cause we are all apart of AA, doesn't mean everybody has to like everybody else. I didn't realize that this would happen. I think I kinda thought people all just got along regardless. Throw sexual relationships into the mix of the social group and everything just gets messed up.
It's hard for me too, because I tend to get along with EVERYBODY. I mean seriously, I am not tooting my horn... I do not rock the boat, and I can't think of one person that I "avoid" or have ill feelings toward in the program. Certainly no-one will keep me from a meeting or dinner outing...
Anywhoooo, just blabbing, thats what was annoying me recently and had to get it out there!
Jonathan
Today, I am grateful for:
My cats
My mom
My family
My friends...
My cats
Schoool...
Being sober... and alive
Peace of mind...
You
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