What I would do...

Oh what I would do. I would do anything to have normal lower extremities which do not hamper my attempts at running. I can go for about a mile and half and then my legs just hurt too much. I blame my lower portion of my legs... that bone below the knees...

I feel so good after a good run, yet its not really a good run! I have to go slow cause my legs can't take the pounding they use to... I go slow but the heart still races to some extent and I feel like a million dollars when I look up at the trees reflecting the lamp light... with darkness surrounding... and music filling my mind... such a good feeling. Every thing becomes clearer...

So... a good day. Let me tell you about it. I woke up at 7:30am, went to a local church and helped feed the homeless until 10:30am. Then I went to the book store and studied until 12:30. Then I went to the gym and lifted weights until 1:30ish, I called my dad in-route and said "happy fathers day". I then went to subway and ate until 2:00 at which point I went to Starbucks and resumed studying... until 4:00, when I went to the grocery, and bought 30 eggs and scrapple. I had about 9 people over for dinner at 5:00pm, we cooked out and had break feast for dinner, and then watched a movie at 6:30pm until l 8:30...

Everybody left, and I went for a run for about a half hour... covered 3 miles and just chilled out... took in the evening and experienced the thrill of my heart racing... I do like that...

Now I am here... and will probably do some studying... maybe an hour of it, and then I am off to bed. The whole point is... I had such a full day and am sober!

Good times...

Jonathan

Hmmm...

Well now, been a few weeks since my last post. I have been super busy with school as of late and am feeling quite bogged down with my studies. I have about a month and a half until I have to take the MCAT and about 2 weeks until biochemistry is over.

I am handling it quite well. I have to surrender often, throw up my hands and say "I can't do it! Not now, go relax... let it go!" Haha... it is good, really. I guess I am sorta concerned about the MCAT... but am sure it will alright. People seem to really have this idea that I am really smart and am going to blow it out of the water. My one professor thinks I am gonna score high enough that he suggests I apply to the top 20 medical schools... ya... hmmm... lets hold off on that and just see how I do eh!?

Any whooo... tired. Life is good today, my cats are beautiful, I have a nice roomy, sobriety is AWESOME, and there is nothing to complain about.

Much love

Jonathan

Hello again my friend hello

Not much in the way of anything new and exciting to report. Although the semester is over, and I most assuredly will recieve a 4.0, I still manage to find the time to stress out about learning! Whats new to me is learning how best to study for the MCAT. I feel stressed as I go through the material myself. I know, or atleast think, I am doing the best I can... and that I will get a good score based on my effort... but its weird, because the test encompasses so much information... and in one sit down study session, you can only really review a small portion of that information.

The test is broken into 3 sections including verbal reasoning, physics, chemistry, organic chemistry and biology. I have study material for each subject... basically 5 different subjects, each with 10 sections. Each section can be gotten through once by reading and writing the info into notecards within 3 hours. So that is 50 sections at about 150 hours! My plan so far has been to hit the bio hard, and generally review the easy stuff (everything else) by reading the sections and doing the quizes and tests.

What is odd, and interesting, is feeling stressed after a day of studying. It's not like normal stress, cause in school, you know you have this test tomorrow and it just covers this amount of info.... with this, its not over, you just gotta keep on studying, day in and day out and stay on schedule. It feels good to write about this... I could feel the cortisol levels rising earlier today ;)

Now all is good, I think I will take a bath and relax... I am leaving for Baltimore on Thursayd... I will be gone for a few days... I will probably bring the computer along for the ride.

Much love

Jonathan

Hello again...

Sorry to drop off the face of the planet like that... the last few weeks have been extremely busy! I have finally gotten done with finals for the semester. Now I get to take biochemistry over the summer, be a lab assistant, and study for the August MCAT.

Good times. I have actually already begun studying for the MCAT. Today I went and bought a crap ton of note cards as that seems to be the best way for me to get all the body systems memorized... We shall see how it goes. I have given myself one week to complete the biology review section.

I am going to Baltimore on Thursday to visit my grandparents. Yeup, going home! I love staying at my dad's parents house... very comforting. It's the only place that has NOT changed my entire life. They still live in the same house, and I still sleep on the same couch every time I go... it is such a blessing to have them still here on this earth... I know they are getting old and pretty much are ready to go anytime... but I will miss them :(

Which is why I make the time and just go veg-out at their house for a few days... litterally... I won't leave their house! HAha...

Oh well... not much else to report.

Good to be sober today... one day at a time. I am going to the Bayshore meeting tonight...

Peace

Jonathan

One week left

One week of school left and the year is over. I will have completed all of the prereqs for med-school with straight A's.

I am doing pretty good. The one thing I would say is that I have been distracted by real life issues, which sometimes can hamper my ability to study. I just wanna get through this week and next so I can relax for a few days before I start studying for the MCAT. Ah... haha, seriously, maybe a little relaxing... but most likely will start studying immediately!

Jonathan

Eh

Tired this evening... jut need some sleep. HALT... Hungry - nope! Angry - Nope! Lonely - Yeaaaaaa - Nope! Tired - Definetily!

Hmm... nothing new to report... school is school. Life is good today. Need a new room-mate... I have a girl moving in from school in the summer, she needed a place to stay and is super cool. No... nothing like that, if that is what you are thinking!

Jenn should be moving out soon... but am unsure when. I gotta tell her about that... plus the damn HOA enacted some BS rules on parking and I need to get some info asap to the property management company...

So yea.. not complaining... just stuff that needs to happen...

Jonathan

lol

Loving my post from two posts down about the lady friend. Yes, it is still unfolding... I have laid back, and have let her go pretty much. I find it interesting how much attention girls want even when they are NOT interested in a romantic relationship...

It's like... come on, seriously... I am not 18 and I am not interested in games or attention seekers...

So, everything else is good... Lost is on tonight, my sister is in town, and I am absolutely slammmmed with homework... which I will now get back too before I have a mental breakdown.

:)

It is awesome to be sober today! Awesome I tell ya!

Jonathan

PS: WTF, my sponsor won't call me back. (not normal for him)