Shitty days

Ok, Fuck It. I am writing this thing to document what I am going through so I might as well tell you about the shitty feeling days. Last night my mom stayed over at my place so that I could take her to the airport early in the morning. For the most part, it was a good evening, except one thing. I was doing my "shitty stinking feeling" all night. I was just negative and depressed. I played a bit of zelda, with not much enthusiasm, then watched tv and what not, and even felt kinda anxious. I jumped in the pool, which was refreshing, then I started thinking about closing on the condo, and no knowing where I am going to move to and all that shit, and it is just too much right now!! Ya know? I have to freaking worry about looking at new places, karate, AA, sobriety, and all this shit!! Agh, the movers! Moving and the move date???! I really want to close this Friday, because I have the movers all set up. If that happens, then I can rent whatever place I choose to buy until the closing. This is of course, my plan, not God's plan. But is God going to make a move in/move out plan for me? Don't think so. I need some major prayerage, and an AA meeting. Today, I am going to go to subway, and try to enjoy my lunch for a change.