Just hanging out today in South Tampa, not much to report. Next week I will probably substitute teach for the first time. I am scared shitless of the thought of me actually doing this, but I think it will be good for me. It would atleast help me understand if teaching is for me.
I have a couple great meetings lined up for tonight and tomorrow, I love the weekends as that's when I hang out with other alchi's the most. We all go out to dinner and meet up at starbucks. It is so much more fun being sober, I am very grateful for that.
The weather is absolutely stunning today, so I am off to go for a quick jog, and perhaps head on over to the pool. Life is pretty great! ;)
Peace out...
Jonathan
Friday, April 20, 2007
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Day 226! Enjoying Unemployment
.Well, it has been a while since my last post! Sorry about that, I find that I have been spending less time on the computer lately.
My job search has been extensive, and kept me extremely busy. Let's see, I have gotten a job offer from a company, as a customer service rep. The pay is less than half of my previous job, but I need something, and need to start my life anew, so I accepted it. That starts on April 30th. In the mean time, I continue to look for other options, but am content and ready to go with the new job.
I am also 2 days from being qualified to substitute teach. This will allow me to do this part time, and see if I like being a teacher! Plus, I can interview in June for teaching positions, if I want to go that route! Very cool.
So all and all, everything is good. Job is lined up... I will probably have to cut spending drastically to make ends meet, but I have a roommate now, and that helps. AA has been a solid rock throughout all of this. I get grounded on a daily basis, and have been very straight forward about asking for emotional support.
Life is good, I am just loving unemployment for now. It is busier than you'd imagine, I have been busy interviewing and taking the substitute teacher training.
I will try to keep yall up to date, but my posts will be fewer, as I no longer have a job where I sit at the computer all day.
Today I am so very grateful for:
Losing my job
AA .
My friends
Family
My two cats
My health
All the opportunities before me
Getting a job offer
And being sober
Sobriety rocks! I love my life today!
Jonathan
My job search has been extensive, and kept me extremely busy. Let's see, I have gotten a job offer from a company, as a customer service rep. The pay is less than half of my previous job, but I need something, and need to start my life anew, so I accepted it. That starts on April 30th. In the mean time, I continue to look for other options, but am content and ready to go with the new job.
I am also 2 days from being qualified to substitute teach. This will allow me to do this part time, and see if I like being a teacher! Plus, I can interview in June for teaching positions, if I want to go that route! Very cool.
So all and all, everything is good. Job is lined up... I will probably have to cut spending drastically to make ends meet, but I have a roommate now, and that helps. AA has been a solid rock throughout all of this. I get grounded on a daily basis, and have been very straight forward about asking for emotional support.
Life is good, I am just loving unemployment for now. It is busier than you'd imagine, I have been busy interviewing and taking the substitute teacher training.
I will try to keep yall up to date, but my posts will be fewer, as I no longer have a job where I sit at the computer all day.
Today I am so very grateful for:
Losing my job
AA .
My friends
Family
My two cats
My health
All the opportunities before me
Getting a job offer
And being sober
Sobriety rocks! I love my life today!
Jonathan
Thursday, April 5, 2007
Day 214! Last day of work
Today is my last day at the office, er was anyhow. I am home now, and just settling in. Over the last two weeks, not much is new. I had two phone interviews and more job prospects, but I am kinda tired of looking, so I think this week I will take it easy. My new roommate moved in, things are working out pretty good there.
I have been trying to meditate and find that has helped some. I am at peace today.
I have just been so busy in AA and with life in general, I have not had the time to post. I have been journaling however, and that is really good for me too.
Had a friend or two relapse recently, and pray that they get the willingness... I imagine I won't hear from either of them until they do figure out they are powerless.
Well, that's all I've got today.
Peace...
Jonathan
I have been trying to meditate and find that has helped some. I am at peace today.
I have just been so busy in AA and with life in general, I have not had the time to post. I have been journaling however, and that is really good for me too.
Had a friend or two relapse recently, and pray that they get the willingness... I imagine I won't hear from either of them until they do figure out they are powerless.
Well, that's all I've got today.
Peace...
Jonathan
Monday, March 26, 2007
Totally forgot about subbing!!!
Today is day number 204!
You know, lately it seems like I have driven myself mad, with all of the "possibilities" regarding what to do with my life after I get fired... I realized today that I have a bunch of options, but totally forgot about the one thing I had been planning on this whole year.
Teaching
Scary, but something I want to try to do. So today, I am going to take the final steps in becoming a sub, and sign up for the class which is needed. The beauty of this is that I can work part time as a sub if I go to school. I can also get a month's experience and then apply for full time teaching positions at the end of the year. So yea, this subbing thing is something that I want to, have to try. Regardless of whether or not I go to school in August, or take another job this summer, or don't get hired as a full time teacher. I NEED TO TRY SUBBING! I am terrified, but man, something is just screaming at me to try it. But fear is keeping me from taking action.
So yea, it seems that I have had many ideas and tons of opportunities... So many so, that I forget what it is I'd like to try to do first! Duh! Well, the school district was closed last week for spring break... that may have had something to do with my crazy job searching this week. Now I think I should just focus on the teaching thing for now, and see what happens... ya know? Perhaps, maybe so?
Well, that is how I feel for now. We'll see how things go!
Peace out,
J
You know, lately it seems like I have driven myself mad, with all of the "possibilities" regarding what to do with my life after I get fired... I realized today that I have a bunch of options, but totally forgot about the one thing I had been planning on this whole year.
Teaching
Scary, but something I want to try to do. So today, I am going to take the final steps in becoming a sub, and sign up for the class which is needed. The beauty of this is that I can work part time as a sub if I go to school. I can also get a month's experience and then apply for full time teaching positions at the end of the year. So yea, this subbing thing is something that I want to, have to try. Regardless of whether or not I go to school in August, or take another job this summer, or don't get hired as a full time teacher. I NEED TO TRY SUBBING! I am terrified, but man, something is just screaming at me to try it. But fear is keeping me from taking action.
So yea, it seems that I have had many ideas and tons of opportunities... So many so, that I forget what it is I'd like to try to do first! Duh! Well, the school district was closed last week for spring break... that may have had something to do with my crazy job searching this week. Now I think I should just focus on the teaching thing for now, and see what happens... ya know? Perhaps, maybe so?
Well, that is how I feel for now. We'll see how things go!
Peace out,
J
Friday, March 23, 2007
Sharing in meetings
201 Days of continuous sobriety.!!
Oh yea!
And to mark that 199th day, I did something extrordinary! Yes that's right, I shared at a meeting!! I did it without anyone telling me "hey you should share more" or anything like that. I remember my first sponsor kinda sorta tried that with me, and I revolted at it. However, today, I recognize that I need to share if I want to take this thing called sobriety to the next level!
So I was nervous, but shared, and the fear went away! Well, not completely away, but I was so excited about it, that I called my sponsor to tell him, and then I couldn't stop thinking about how I was going to share the next time. I did it again tonight! Both times on topic, and I tried my best to have a coherent line of thought... very cool. And people came up to talk to me afterword! Wow!
I love this program. ;)
Peace...
Jonathan
Oh yea!
And to mark that 199th day, I did something extrordinary! Yes that's right, I shared at a meeting!! I did it without anyone telling me "hey you should share more" or anything like that. I remember my first sponsor kinda sorta tried that with me, and I revolted at it. However, today, I recognize that I need to share if I want to take this thing called sobriety to the next level!
So I was nervous, but shared, and the fear went away! Well, not completely away, but I was so excited about it, that I called my sponsor to tell him, and then I couldn't stop thinking about how I was going to share the next time. I did it again tonight! Both times on topic, and I tried my best to have a coherent line of thought... very cool. And people came up to talk to me afterword! Wow!
I love this program. ;)
Peace...
Jonathan
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Dragging ass...
Day 198 of continuous sobriety!!! ;)
I am so happy about that! Man, just hanging out at the office... and I mean barely hanging on... it is so hard to be here knowing that my boss is giving me my two weeks notice on Friday!
I feel depressed, despondant, and just feel like a failure! Yea, so that's how I feel. So what did I do about; I called my sponsor, I called another friend, I posted here, and I am reading out of one of my books.
But I still feel pretty shitty! I know that in the evening, when I can get to a meeting, I feel great. But every second of being here is just plain aweful. So yea, that's how I feel about that. It's like every day I feel wonderful when I finally get home... but when I am here... oh it sucks big time!
Ok, besides all that, more applying to jobs, and talking to people about me and my life. New idea - What about going back to school for my MBA?? I could focus in on Finance and International Business... two subjects I am interested in... My mom said she would put me through school... and I can work part time while doing it, and get it done in 2 years. Just a thought, my friend Ted is going back in the fall. I think that is where I got the idea.
I think in terms of jobs it would allow me to work towards something I enjoy, but I'd have to really go all out if I do it.
Any how.. just talked to my Dad, and wanted to make a note of it. He told me to check out his company's website and use him as a reference! Never thought of that! So I did, and even found a position "gasp!" I am qualified for! Who knows! Just another lead... time to turn it all over!
So peace folks, and thanks for listening to my ranting and raving!
Jonathan
I am so happy about that! Man, just hanging out at the office... and I mean barely hanging on... it is so hard to be here knowing that my boss is giving me my two weeks notice on Friday!
I feel depressed, despondant, and just feel like a failure! Yea, so that's how I feel. So what did I do about; I called my sponsor, I called another friend, I posted here, and I am reading out of one of my books.
But I still feel pretty shitty! I know that in the evening, when I can get to a meeting, I feel great. But every second of being here is just plain aweful. So yea, that's how I feel about that. It's like every day I feel wonderful when I finally get home... but when I am here... oh it sucks big time!
Ok, besides all that, more applying to jobs, and talking to people about me and my life. New idea - What about going back to school for my MBA?? I could focus in on Finance and International Business... two subjects I am interested in... My mom said she would put me through school... and I can work part time while doing it, and get it done in 2 years. Just a thought, my friend Ted is going back in the fall. I think that is where I got the idea.
I think in terms of jobs it would allow me to work towards something I enjoy, but I'd have to really go all out if I do it.
Any how.. just talked to my Dad, and wanted to make a note of it. He told me to check out his company's website and use him as a reference! Never thought of that! So I did, and even found a position "gasp!" I am qualified for! Who knows! Just another lead... time to turn it all over!
So peace folks, and thanks for listening to my ranting and raving!
Jonathan
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Decisions, decisions!!!
Day 193!
Made the decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of...
I have been trying my darnedest to figure out what the heck to do with myself. I have all these jobs I am looking at, 99% of which I won't even get an interview... I also have two job paths that I am seriously contemplating, each for completely different reasons, and each pretty easily attainable...
My mom suggested selling high end cars... she can hook me up at a dealership in the area. That idea has never occured to me, but now that I think about it, I really think it may be a good path to take, as I usually bitch and complain about sitting in an office all day. Talking to people, and staying out of my head is a must. So I imagine selling cars could be like that. Also, I imagine that having to sell another car to put food on the table, will be plenty motivation to go to work and get stuff done. On the other hand, I am terrified by the prospect of having to sell stuff to make a living... just never thought I could be a "salesman"... Maybe there is something to it... maybe... I won't know unless I try it out. Which brings me to the other career path: Teaching.
Teaching would mean less money than even the sales job... but I would be doing something I imagine I would enjoy... even though I am terrified by the prospect of standing in front of kids and instructing them in the ways of the world... terrified even more than the car-sales thing... But, the idea, and the challenge, and the nature of the work appeals to me...
So yea, two very different options I really think I am considering...
You know what? I won't figure this out unless I make a few phone calls to some dealerships, and schools, and talk to people in the field. I already have talked to some teachers and took the tests, so I know a bit about that... but the car sales thing, I need to atleast go talk to someone, and see if it might be a fit.
That would be leg-work... I think if I do the work, God will take care of me in the end...
PS -- It's funny, when I read what I just wrote... my situation doesn't seem so bad!
Made the decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of...
I have been trying my darnedest to figure out what the heck to do with myself. I have all these jobs I am looking at, 99% of which I won't even get an interview... I also have two job paths that I am seriously contemplating, each for completely different reasons, and each pretty easily attainable...
My mom suggested selling high end cars... she can hook me up at a dealership in the area. That idea has never occured to me, but now that I think about it, I really think it may be a good path to take, as I usually bitch and complain about sitting in an office all day. Talking to people, and staying out of my head is a must. So I imagine selling cars could be like that. Also, I imagine that having to sell another car to put food on the table, will be plenty motivation to go to work and get stuff done. On the other hand, I am terrified by the prospect of having to sell stuff to make a living... just never thought I could be a "salesman"... Maybe there is something to it... maybe... I won't know unless I try it out. Which brings me to the other career path: Teaching.
Teaching would mean less money than even the sales job... but I would be doing something I imagine I would enjoy... even though I am terrified by the prospect of standing in front of kids and instructing them in the ways of the world... terrified even more than the car-sales thing... But, the idea, and the challenge, and the nature of the work appeals to me...
So yea, two very different options I really think I am considering...
You know what? I won't figure this out unless I make a few phone calls to some dealerships, and schools, and talk to people in the field. I already have talked to some teachers and took the tests, so I know a bit about that... but the car sales thing, I need to atleast go talk to someone, and see if it might be a fit.
That would be leg-work... I think if I do the work, God will take care of me in the end...
PS -- It's funny, when I read what I just wrote... my situation doesn't seem so bad!
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