Friday, March 28, 2008

Feeling a little better! 1 Year, 7 months sober!

I got through that week just fine, it was hell being sick but I am feeling better. Today I have a bit of a head cold... you know, the sniffles and all that. I should be able to tough it out, ya know? As long as I take it one day at a time :)

I ran into a friend today at the local "bucks"... He told me he was back "out there". He said it so nonchalantly, I was taken off guard! I see him fairly often up there, and he seems to have it all together. Weird huh? We talked about stuff, he mentioned how alcohol wasn't really his problem, but cocaine was... I was like... uh huh, uh huh... Just stay away from the coke and you'll be great! So glad to see you! Just odd finding out someone you care about is back out there.

No worries folks, I am sooo happy being sober it's not even funny.

Today I have sober friends, people who love me for me and all of my character defects that come with, people who care about me and want nothing more from me than for me to be sober. You know, I can be there for my buddy I saw today, if and when he asks me for help. Who knows, maybe he won't need my help... whatever, you know, I am happy he says he's happy! :) See <-- that was a smiley face!

I read today that google's stock was down 40% this year... something about that made me smile too... I could never understand how all of these "advertisement clicks" were making a company billions of US dollars!? I mean, wtf?! When have you ever clicked on an annoying add on purpose? Ok, maybe you have... and now that I think about it, I have too. Maybe I am just mad I didn't buy the stock when it was at 85$ during the first few weeks of it's IPO!

Ok, sorry, random thoughts!

Lol!

So glad to be sober today!

Today I am grateful!

J

12 comments:

  1. It's always interesting to see how each of us has different triggers and addiction.s I wish your friend luck the best of luck. He may need it.

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  2. THE 12 STEPS DOWN TO HELL:
    I imagine 12 Step recovery programs are a slow slide into the jaws of Satan. I was involved with this evil “satanic cult” [AA] for over 30 years but was saved through the power of Jesus Christ.

    He directed me to a therapist who was into “real” recovery, not the mind destroying, soul destroying, cult, which is AA. I have met two Steppers recently & I imagine they are completely devoid of any emotion or insight.

    I feel pain because both these men are decent human beings but AA has destroyed their individuality & they have no idea how to relate apart from expounding AA propaganda.

    I imagine Hell to be a continuous flow of AA meetings without any light at the end of the tunnel because one never recovers'. I beg you people who are in 12 Step programs, to get out before it is too late.

    How does one recover when one is handing one’s power over to AA. The 12 Steps were written out of Wilson’s head, he certainly didn’t get his guidance from the Bible.

    I imagine he was an agent of Satan & he & Smith’s “cult religion” has filled millions of Steppers with their anti - Christ propaganda.

    Step Three of AA is "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him." While many in the Oxford Group placed their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour, there was much leeway given.

    Shoemaker, a leader of the Oxford Group, says, "The true meaning of faith is self-surrender to God." He further explains:

    Surrender to whatever you know about Him, or believe must be the truth about Him. Surrender to Him, if necessary, in total ignorance of Him. Far more important that you touch Him than that you understand Him at first.

    Put yourself in His hands. Whatever He is, as William James said, He is more ideal than we are. Make the leap. Give yourself to Him.
    Aside from capitalizing the "H," which Christians do to refer to the God of the Bible, "Him" could refer to any god of one’s own making [bedpan].

    Can you see what is happening to you? Ask Jesus to take control of your lives, read the Bible & instead of 12 Step groups, go to Church. Burn your Big Book or use it as toilet paper.

    Can you see the difference: With The 12 Steps, you never recover but with John 3:16 you are guaranteed Eternal Salvation. The “ball is in your court?"


    I, MICKY, AM THE LORD'S LORD'S LIGHT & SALVATION FOR OTHER PEOPLE.

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  3. THE 12 STEPS DOWN TO HELL:
    I imagine 12 Step recovery programs are a slow slide into the jaws of Satan. I was involved with this evil “satanic cult” [AA] for over 30 years but was saved through the power of Jesus Christ.

    He directed me to a therapist who was into “real” recovery, not the mind destroying, soul destroying, cult, which is AA. I have met two Steppers recently & I imagine they are completely devoid of any emotion or insight.

    I feel pain because both these men are decent human beings but AA has destroyed their individuality & they have no idea how to relate apart from expounding AA propaganda.

    I imagine Hell to be a continuous flow of AA meetings without any light at the end of the tunnel because one never recovers'. I beg you people who are in 12 Step programs, to get out before it is too late.

    How does one recover when one is handing one’s power over to AA. The 12 Steps were written out of Wilson’s head, he certainly didn’t get his guidance from the Bible.

    I imagine he was an agent of Satan & he & Smith’s “cult religion” has filled millions of Steppers with their anti - Christ propaganda.

    Step Three of AA is "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him." While many in the Oxford Group placed their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour, there was much leeway given.

    Shoemaker, a leader of the Oxford Group, says, "The true meaning of faith is self-surrender to God." He further explains:

    Surrender to whatever you know about Him, or believe must be the truth about Him. Surrender to Him, if necessary, in total ignorance of Him. Far more important that you touch Him than that you understand Him at first.

    Put yourself in His hands. Whatever He is, as William James said, He is more ideal than we are. Make the leap. Give yourself to Him.
    Aside from capitalizing the "H," which Christians do to refer to the God of the Bible, "Him" could refer to any god of one’s own making [bedpan].

    Can you see what is happening to you? Ask Jesus to take control of your lives, read the Bible & instead of 12 Step groups, go to Church. Burn your Big Book or use it as toilet paper.

    Can you see the difference: With The 12 Steps, you never recover but with John 3:16 you are guaranteed Eternal Salvation. The “ball is in your court?"


    I, MICKY, AM THE LORD'S LIGHT & SALVATION FOR OTHER PEOPLE.

    ReplyDelete
  4. THE 12 STEPS DOWN TO HELL:
    I imagine 12 Step recovery programs are a slow slide into the jaws of Satan. I was involved with this evil “satanic cult” [AA] for over 30 years but was saved through the power of Jesus Christ.

    He directed me to a therapist who was into “real” recovery, not the mind destroying, soul destroying, cult, which is AA. I have met two Steppers recently & I imagine they are completely devoid of any emotion or insight.

    I feel pain because both these men are decent human beings but AA has destroyed their individuality & they have no idea how to relate apart from expounding AA propaganda.

    I imagine Hell to be a continuous flow of AA meetings without any light at the end of the tunnel because one never recovers'. I beg you people who are in 12 Step programs, to get out before it is too late.

    How does one recover when one is handing one’s power over to AA. The 12 Steps were written out of Wilson’s head, he certainly didn’t get his guidance from the Bible.

    I imagine he was an agent of Satan & he & Smith’s “cult religion” has filled millions of Steppers with their anti - Christ propaganda.

    Step Three of AA is "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him." While many in the Oxford Group placed their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour, there was much leeway given.

    Shoemaker, a leader of the Oxford Group, says, "The true meaning of faith is self-surrender to God." He further explains:

    Surrender to whatever you know about Him, or believe must be the truth about Him. Surrender to Him, if necessary, in total ignorance of Him. Far more important that you touch Him than that you understand Him at first.

    Put yourself in His hands. Whatever He is, as William James said, He is more ideal than we are. Make the leap. Give yourself to Him.
    Aside from capitalizing the "H," which Christians do to refer to the God of the Bible, "Him" could refer to any god of one’s own making [bedpan].

    Can you see what is happening to you? Ask Jesus to take control of your lives, read the Bible & instead of 12 Step groups, go to Church. Burn your Big Book or use it as toilet paper.

    Can you see the difference: With The 12 Steps, you never recover but with John 3:16 you are guaranteed Eternal Salvation. The “ball is in your court?"


    I, MICKY, AM THE LORD'S LIGHT & SALVATION FOR OTHER PEOPLE.

    ReplyDelete
  5. THE 12 STEPS DOWN TO HELL:
    I imagine 12 Step recovery programs are a slow slide into the jaws of Satan. I was involved with this evil “satanic cult” [AA] for over 30 years but was saved through the power of Jesus Christ.

    He directed me to a therapist who was into “real” recovery, not the mind destroying, soul destroying, cult, which is AA. I have met two Steppers recently & I imagine they are completely devoid of any emotion or insight.

    I feel pain because both these men are decent human beings but AA has destroyed their individuality & they have no idea how to relate apart from expounding AA propaganda.

    I imagine Hell to be a continuous flow of AA meetings without any light at the end of the tunnel because one never recovers'. I beg you people who are in 12 Step programs, to get out before it is too late.

    How does one recover when one is handing one’s power over to AA. The 12 Steps were written out of Wilson’s head, he certainly didn’t get his guidance from the Bible.

    I imagine he was an agent of Satan & he & Smith’s “cult religion” has filled millions of Steppers with their anti - Christ propaganda.

    Step Three of AA is "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him." While many in the Oxford Group placed their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour, there was much leeway given.

    Shoemaker, a leader of the Oxford Group, says, "The true meaning of faith is self-surrender to God." He further explains:

    Surrender to whatever you know about Him, or believe must be the truth about Him. Surrender to Him, if necessary, in total ignorance of Him. Far more important that you touch Him than that you understand Him at first.

    Put yourself in His hands. Whatever He is, as William James said, He is more ideal than we are. Make the leap. Give yourself to Him.
    Aside from capitalizing the "H," which Christians do to refer to the God of the Bible, "Him" could refer to any god of one’s own making [bedpan].

    Can you see what is happening to you? Ask Jesus to take control of your lives, read the Bible & instead of 12 Step groups, go to Church. Burn your Big Book or use it as toilet paper.

    Can you see the difference: With The 12 Steps, you never recover but with John 3:16 you are guaranteed Eternal Salvation. The “ball is in your court?"


    I, MICKY, AM THE LORD'S LIGHT & SALVATION FOR OTHER PEOPLE.

    ReplyDelete
  6. THE 12 STEPS DOWN TO HELL:
    I imagine 12 Step recovery programs are a slow slide into the jaws of Satan. I was involved with this evil “satanic cult” [AA] for over 30 years but was saved through the power of Jesus Christ.

    He directed me to a therapist who was into “real” recovery, not the mind destroying, soul destroying, cult, which is AA. I have met two Steppers recently & I imagine they are completely devoid of any emotion or insight.

    I feel pain because both these men are decent human beings but AA has destroyed their individuality & they have no idea how to relate apart from expounding AA propaganda.

    I imagine Hell to be a continuous flow of AA meetings without any light at the end of the tunnel because one never recovers'. I beg you people who are in 12 Step programs, to get out before it is too late.

    How does one recover when one is handing one’s power over to AA. The 12 Steps were written out of Wilson’s head, he certainly didn’t get his guidance from the Bible.

    I imagine he was an agent of Satan & he & Smith’s “cult religion” has filled millions of Steppers with their anti - Christ propaganda.

    Step Three of AA is "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him." While many in the Oxford Group placed their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour, there was much leeway given.

    Shoemaker, a leader of the Oxford Group, says, "The true meaning of faith is self-surrender to God." He further explains:

    Surrender to whatever you know about Him, or believe must be the truth about Him. Surrender to Him, if necessary, in total ignorance of Him. Far more important that you touch Him than that you understand Him at first.

    Put yourself in His hands. Whatever He is, as William James said, He is more ideal than we are. Make the leap. Give yourself to Him.
    Aside from capitalizing the "H," which Christians do to refer to the God of the Bible, "Him" could refer to any god of one’s own making [bedpan].

    Can you see what is happening to you? Ask Jesus to take control of your lives, read the Bible & instead of 12 Step groups, go to Church. Burn your Big Book or use it as toilet paper.

    Can you see the difference: With The 12 Steps, you never recover but with John 3:16 you are guaranteed Eternal Salvation. The “ball is in your court?"


    I, MICKY, AM THE LORD'S LIGHT & SALVATION FOR OTHER PEOPLE.

    ReplyDelete
  7. THE 12 STEPS DOWN TO HELL:
    I imagine 12 Step recovery programs are a slow slide into the jaws of Satan. I was involved with this evil “satanic cult” [AA] for over 30 years but was saved through the power of Jesus Christ.

    He directed me to a therapist who was into “real” recovery, not the mind destroying, soul destroying, cult, which is AA. I have met two Steppers recently & I imagine they are completely devoid of any emotion or insight.

    I feel pain because both these men are decent human beings but AA has destroyed their individuality & they have no idea how to relate apart from expounding AA propaganda.

    I imagine Hell to be a continuous flow of AA meetings without any light at the end of the tunnel because one never recovers'. I beg you people who are in 12 Step programs, to get out before it is too late.

    How does one recover when one is handing one’s power over to AA. The 12 Steps were written out of Wilson’s head, he certainly didn’t get his guidance from the Bible.

    I imagine he was an agent of Satan & he & Smith’s “cult religion” has filled millions of Steppers with their anti - Christ propaganda.

    Step Three of AA is "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him." While many in the Oxford Group placed their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour, there was much leeway given.

    Shoemaker, a leader of the Oxford Group, says, "The true meaning of faith is self-surrender to God." He further explains:

    Surrender to whatever you know about Him, or believe must be the truth about Him. Surrender to Him, if necessary, in total ignorance of Him. Far more important that you touch Him than that you understand Him at first.

    Put yourself in His hands. Whatever He is, as William James said, He is more ideal than we are. Make the leap. Give yourself to Him.
    Aside from capitalizing the "H," which Christians do to refer to the God of the Bible, "Him" could refer to any god of one’s own making [bedpan].

    Can you see what is happening to you? Ask Jesus to take control of your lives, read the Bible & instead of 12 Step groups, go to Church. Burn your Big Book or use it as toilet paper.

    Can you see the difference: With The 12 Steps, you never recover but with John 3:16 you are guaranteed Eternal Salvation. The “ball is in your court?"


    I, MICKY, AM THE LORD'S LIGHT & SALVATION FOR OTHER PEOPLE.

    ReplyDelete
  8. THE 12 STEPS DOWN TO HELL:
    I imagine 12 Step recovery programs are a slow slide into the jaws of Satan. I was involved with this evil “satanic cult” [AA] for over 30 years but was saved through the power of Jesus Christ.

    He directed me to a therapist who was into “real” recovery, not the mind destroying, soul destroying, cult, which is AA. I have met two Steppers recently & I imagine they are completely devoid of any emotion or insight.

    I feel pain because both these men are decent human beings but AA has destroyed their individuality & they have no idea how to relate apart from expounding AA propaganda.

    I imagine Hell to be a continuous flow of AA meetings without any light at the end of the tunnel because one never recovers'. I beg you people who are in 12 Step programs, to get out before it is too late.

    How does one recover when one is handing one’s power over to AA. The 12 Steps were written out of Wilson’s head, he certainly didn’t get his guidance from the Bible.

    I imagine he was an agent of Satan & he & Smith’s “cult religion” has filled millions of Steppers with their anti - Christ propaganda.

    Step Three of AA is "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him." While many in the Oxford Group placed their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour, there was much leeway given.

    Shoemaker, a leader of the Oxford Group, says, "The true meaning of faith is self-surrender to God." He further explains:

    Surrender to whatever you know about Him, or believe must be the truth about Him. Surrender to Him, if necessary, in total ignorance of Him. Far more important that you touch Him than that you understand Him at first.

    Put yourself in His hands. Whatever He is, as William James said, He is more ideal than we are. Make the leap. Give yourself to Him.
    Aside from capitalizing the "H," which Christians do to refer to the God of the Bible, "Him" could refer to any god of one’s own making [bedpan].

    Can you see what is happening to you? Ask Jesus to take control of your lives, read the Bible & instead of 12 Step groups, go to Church. Burn your Big Book or use it as toilet paper.

    Can you see the difference: With The 12 Steps, you never recover but with John 3:16 you are guaranteed Eternal Salvation. The “ball is in your court?"


    I, MICKY, AM THE LORD'S LIGHT & SALVATION FOR OTHER PEOPLE.

    ReplyDelete
  9. THE 12 STEPS DOWN TO HELL:
    I imagine 12 Step recovery programs are a slow slide into the jaws of Satan. I was involved with this evil “satanic cult” [AA] for over 30 years but was saved through the power of Jesus Christ.

    He directed me to a therapist who was into “real” recovery, not the mind destroying, soul destroying, cult, which is AA. I have met two Steppers recently & I imagine they are completely devoid of any emotion or insight.

    I feel pain because both these men are decent human beings but AA has destroyed their individuality & they have no idea how to relate apart from expounding AA propaganda.

    I imagine Hell to be a continuous flow of AA meetings without any light at the end of the tunnel because one never recovers'. I beg you people who are in 12 Step programs, to get out before it is too late.

    How does one recover when one is handing one’s power over to AA. The 12 Steps were written out of Wilson’s head, he certainly didn’t get his guidance from the Bible.

    I imagine he was an agent of Satan & he & Smith’s “cult religion” has filled millions of Steppers with their anti - Christ propaganda.

    Step Three of AA is "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him." While many in the Oxford Group placed their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour, there was much leeway given.

    Shoemaker, a leader of the Oxford Group, says, "The true meaning of faith is self-surrender to God." He further explains:

    Surrender to whatever you know about Him, or believe must be the truth about Him. Surrender to Him, if necessary, in total ignorance of Him. Far more important that you touch Him than that you understand Him at first.

    Put yourself in His hands. Whatever He is, as William James said, He is more ideal than we are. Make the leap. Give yourself to Him.
    Aside from capitalizing the "H," which Christians do to refer to the God of the Bible, "Him" could refer to any god of one’s own making [bedpan].

    Can you see what is happening to you? Ask Jesus to take control of your lives, read the Bible & instead of 12 Step groups, go to Church. Burn your Big Book or use it as toilet paper.

    Can you see the difference: With The 12 Steps, you never recover but with John 3:16 you are guaranteed Eternal Salvation. The “ball is in your court?"


    I, MICKY, AM THE LORD'S LIGHT & SALVATION FOR OTHER PEOPLE.

    ReplyDelete
  10. SOUND OF SOBRIETY:
    Hello darkness, my old friend,
    Ive come to talk crap again,
    An AA meeting softly creeping,
    Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
    And the 12 Steps that were planted in my brain
    Still remains
    Within the sound of sobriety.

    In restless meetings I walked alone
    Bill Wilson Clones, made of stone
    Neath the halo of an OLD TIMER,
    I turned my collar to the 1st and 3rd Step
    When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
    A SPIRITUAL AWAKENING
    That split the night
    And touched the sound of sobriety.

    And in the naked light I saw
    Ten thousand STEPPERS, maybe more.
    STEPPERS reading the BIG BOOK,
    STEPPERS hearing without listening,
    STEPPERS writing their 4th STEP
    And no one dared
    Disturb the sound of sobriety.

    Zombies said I, you do not know
    Sobriety like a cancer grows.
    Hear my words that I might BRAINWASH you,
    Take my arms that I might 13th Step you.
    But my words like the higher power fell,
    And echoed
    In the halls of sobriety

    And the STEPPERS ranted and raved
    To the AA god they made.
    And the sign flashed out its warning,
    In the words that it was forming.
    And the sign said, KEEP COMING BACK
    IT WORKS IF YOU WORK IT
    And the 12 STEP ZOMBIES.
    Whispered in the sounds of sobriety.

    I, MICKY, AM THE TRUTH & BEAUTY THAT SURROUNDS THE LORD.

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  11. SOUND OF SOBRIETY:
    Hello darkness, my old friend,
    Ive come to talk crap again,
    An AA meeting softly creeping,
    Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
    And the 12 Steps that were planted in my brain
    Still remains
    Within the sound of sobriety.

    In restless meetings I walked alone
    Bill Wilson Clones, made of stone
    Neath the halo of an OLD TIMER,
    I turned my collar to the 1st and 3rd Step
    When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
    A SPIRITUAL AWAKENING
    That split the night
    And touched the sound of sobriety.

    And in the naked light I saw
    Ten thousand STEPPERS, maybe more.
    STEPPERS reading the BIG BOOK,
    STEPPERS hearing without listening,
    STEPPERS writing their 4th STEP
    And no one dared
    Disturb the sound of sobriety.

    Zombies said I, you do not know
    Sobriety like a cancer grows.
    Hear my words that I might BRAINWASH you,
    Take my arms that I might 13th Step you.
    But my words like the higher power fell,
    And echoed
    In the halls of sobriety

    And the STEPPERS ranted and raved
    To the AA god they made.
    And the sign flashed out its warning,
    In the words that it was forming.
    And the sign said, KEEP COMING BACK
    IT WORKS IF YOU WORK IT
    And the 12 STEP ZOMBIES.
    Whispered in the sounds of sobriety.

    I, MICKY, AM THE TRUTH & BEAUTY THAT SURROUNDS THE LORD.

    ReplyDelete
  12. SOUND OF SOBRIETY:
    Hello darkness, my old friend,
    Ive come to talk crap again,
    An AA meeting softly creeping,
    Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
    And the 12 Steps that were planted in my brain
    Still remains
    Within the sound of sobriety.

    In restless meetings I walked alone
    Bill Wilson Clones, made of stone
    Neath the halo of an OLD TIMER,
    I turned my collar to the 1st and 3rd Step
    When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
    A SPIRITUAL AWAKENING
    That split the night
    And touched the sound of sobriety.

    And in the naked light I saw
    Ten thousand STEPPERS, maybe more.
    STEPPERS reading the BIG BOOK,
    STEPPERS hearing without listening,
    STEPPERS writing their 4th STEP
    And no one dared
    Disturb the sound of sobriety.

    Zombies said I, you do not know
    Sobriety like a cancer grows.
    Hear my words that I might BRAINWASH you,
    Take my arms that I might 13th Step you.
    But my words like the higher power fell,
    And echoed
    In the halls of sobriety

    And the STEPPERS ranted and raved
    To the AA god they made.
    And the sign flashed out its warning,
    In the words that it was forming.
    And the sign said, KEEP COMING BACK
    IT WORKS IF YOU WORK IT
    And the 12 STEP ZOMBIES.
    Whispered in the sounds of sobriety.

    I, MICKY, AM THE TRUTH & BEAUTY THAT SURROUNDS THE LORD.

    ReplyDelete