One year later

 I am happy to report life is good.

Today we are on a cruise and I cant get that feeling of worry out of my head.  I really cant pinpoint the reason... is it because 3 of us have noro virus and are cooped on a ship in the middle of the gulf of Mexico?

Perhaps.

Is it because im just worried im doing it all wrong?  

Probably.

Am I worried about work stuff even though that is all out of my control and really have nothing to worry about?

Yeup.

Am I just a worry wort?

Yeup.

I have three beautiful children... a great wife.. a great job... I have it all. Really... I even have an interesting hobby people love to talk to me about.  So what the heck?  Yea just not great on ships when everyone is sick and the kids are tough to please...

Feels good to write this down.  I really wish I brought my journal but this will do just fine.

I wish I could learn how to let go of things easier... none of the worries really matter. I pretty much won at life and here im what... its not unhappiness... its more of a dread feeling.  Like waiting for the damn shoe to drop.  The one that hangs above my head constantly which im not 100 percent sure wasn't because my mom and dad had the emotional intelligence of tweens.

Well those be my thoughts for the day.

Peace