On missing home

I do miss home I think... this cruise is about 6 days too long for us.  

The kids are ready... 

Im ready...

Lets go home.

I think we did good though... kids had a good experience overall overcoming noro virus, learning to be in room by themselves, being more independent, just travel is good for them too.

So not all is lost... 

 What is it with the brain, I don't know... feeling weird.  Kids are good,vacation going slightly better, still cooped up, kinda angry about this damn cruise, we won't do this again.  2 days at port for 4 at sea and 2 travel days, like WTAF bruh were you even thinking?

Yea ok, end rant.

Hopefully I can get some motivation back to train when I get home.

cant shake that feeling

Still on a cruise... cant shake the feeling.  Shoe is gonna drop. 

Stupid.

Kids are way more active today.  Im thinking the noro virus was really the problem last few days.  It really ruined things for us half the cruise!  

Also couldn't port today due to wind... but maybe that was a blessing in disguise as kids are on the pool deck finally having fun.

Maybe I think it is work politics that has me down which is interesting.

Feel out of control not being home I think.

How to dispense with that?

Need to practice relaxing 😌 

One year later

 I am happy to report life is good.

Today we are on a cruise and I cant get that feeling of worry out of my head.  I really cant pinpoint the reason... is it because 3 of us have noro virus and are cooped on a ship in the middle of the gulf of Mexico?

Perhaps.

Is it because im just worried im doing it all wrong?  

Probably.

Am I worried about work stuff even though that is all out of my control and really have nothing to worry about?

Yeup.

Am I just a worry wort?

Yeup.

I have three beautiful children... a great wife.. a great job... I have it all. Really... I even have an interesting hobby people love to talk to me about.  So what the heck?  Yea just not great on ships when everyone is sick and the kids are tough to please...

Feels good to write this down.  I really wish I brought my journal but this will do just fine.

I wish I could learn how to let go of things easier... none of the worries really matter. I pretty much won at life and here im what... its not unhappiness... its more of a dread feeling.  Like waiting for the damn shoe to drop.  The one that hangs above my head constantly which im not 100 percent sure wasn't because my mom and dad had the emotional intelligence of tweens.

Well those be my thoughts for the day.

Peace