Three Years Sober soon!

I will have three years on September 3rd! Hurray! My roommate was like "I thought it was odd you go to so many meetings having soo much time, like I thought you'd go to less meetings as you have more time!" Silly little normie, they don't quite understand do they! lol

Got back from my cruise in Baltics... very nice. Lots of fun. Met lots of people, and facebooked them all. Some are already planning a Las Vegas weekend in the near future! I can't explain how much fun I had, once again. It seems like I have had more fun sober on cruise ships than I ever did in the past being drunk on cruises. If they go to Vegas, I will probably go as well if the flights are cheap.

Back to reality now. I have lots of secondary applications to fill out for med school. It's hard to stay motivated because I caught ANOTHER cold. Anywhooo... good to be alive!

Jonathan

2 Years and 11 months sober...

I can't tell you how grateful I am that some of you blog and continue to blog. Looking back at my 6 posts over the last 5 months, it is appearent that I am not good at blogging. But it does help me occassionally to type this stuff out which goes on between my head.

I leave for Europ in a few days, and will be gone for about 2 weeks. I am nervous about that, sorta, and the fact that I have to leave my kitty cats. I also feel slightly stressed about what comes next in the application process, which is filling out all the secondary applications and writing a bunch of essays. I think my plan is to take all the essay questions and write out my responses while on the cruise and airplane. What better time is there, ya know? I know, I know, I should enjoy the cruise and relax... well, I find it relaxing to get things done and out of the way, and as Medical School is important to me, I will find it very relaxing to get these applications done before the next semester starts in September.

I will miss my friends as well, and hope that they don't miss me too much. Not that I am really all that important. :) My life is really great today. I hope to only make more meaningful relationships in the future, and to discover a deeper love for life and others as I trudge the happy road to the best years of my life.

Jonathan

Pivot

Just took the MCAT. I do not want to dwell on it, and such is the reason for my post today. This is the last I plan on mentioning it until I get my scores (1 month!). I feel that I did well on it, but naturally I am in my mind obsessing over questions, second guessing, and even confirming wrong answer choices that I made! This is classic pre-med behavior... and classic alcoholic behavior too! So... I hid all my study material, and am eliminating all possible reminders of the test. Hopefully not too many folks will ask how I did or what not, cause it makes me think about it!

When doubts creep in I shall remember:

To pivot away from the bar and towards the here and now. Turn over all the doubts and fears and live in the present. I felt really good and confident while I took the exam. I will get a good score!

End of story. Check back in a month and we shall see how I did!

Jonathan